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Subject:This fall
Time:10:08 am
Current Mood:distresseddistressed
I have so much to update on.. I'm mostly on FB now , but can't really express my true feelings and thoughts there because of the snoopers and extended family members there that love being up in my business..

So, I'm gonna get better at posting.. I need this creative outlet!

Ok.. about me.. Most of you know about my daughter for the past 5 yrs or so.. well, now my husband and I get to keep her daughter whenever we want to, and we will have her on Christmas this year too :)  She's 4 now.. my daughters situation hasn't changed.. she's still with the idiot and they still don't have a pot to piss in but I've decided that it's either the best they can do or the best that they want to do and i've learned to just leave it alone.  I do for the baby, and that's it.  If they need gas money they need to figure out a way to earn it.  
My grandbaby is precious and sweet.  There is nothing in the world like her in my book :)

2 weeks ago I started hemorrhaging and had to have an emergency D&C.  That next Tuesday they did a Supercervical abdominal hysterectomy.  That means that they took everything but my cervix.   I started losing too much blood on the operating table, so they had to transfuse me and call in an additional surgeon to assist my doctor.   That has been on ordeal.. but overall I think i've done well.. I needed 2 pain shots the first day of surgery, and took 1/2 pain pill after I was home. The pain has been very minimal other than just feeling like someone beat me up.   My uterus and fibroids weighed 20 lbs!!!  Since it was so large, my incision is very large and I have about 40 staples still.  They come out Monday.  


While I was in the hospital, my husbands mother had a heart attack, so there she was in one hospital in one town, me in another hospital in another one.  Ironically, we both had the same room number!   They put a stint in her but she still needs one more replaced in a few months, once she recovers.

I got a call this morning that my birth father passed away in South Carolina.  I feel so helpless.. here I am cut from can to can't and there is no way that I can even travel right now for the funeral.  My heart is broken.. I loved him so much and I hope he knew that.   Just feel broken right now.. I tried to show him that I loved him as much as he would let me..
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Subject:Facebook- add me if you have it!
Time:07:16 am
Current Mood:crazycrazy

I hope this is the right link to facebook.. I'm on there farming more than anywhere else online these days

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/joyce.c.hurst?ref=profile
Add me if you wanna.

I haven't posted in forever.. life ya know :).  I've been driven crazy by my daughters stupidity lately.. her husband was arrested this past weekend for fighting.. of course.. who do you think they called at 2am friday am?  Me. They told me that her b/f was hurt.. I went and picked them up.. only to finding them hiding behind an old liquor store WITH the baby.  He was sooo drunk.. had blood all over him and.. he had left his mothers car somewhere with the keys in it and had no clue where he left it.    The police were circling all around like buzzards looking for him.. when we finally got his drunk butt in the car, we flagged a policeman down and he was arrested.  Of course.. now you know it's all our fault because we didnt hide him out.. my husband IS a cop.. the Dummies.. they had to blame someone I guess.. just blame Mom.. why not? 

Anyway.. long story short here.. but the baby was filthy, they stunk to high heaven.. my daughter wasn't drunk but as a mother can you imagine how I felt driving up and seeing my daughter holding her baby sitting down behind a store in the middle of the night in a bad section of town with a very drunk man .. I was devistated.  We brought her and the baby home with us for the night.. made them take baths and all.. I put neosporin on all of the babies multiple mosquito bites that literally covered her little legs..

I found out that CPS has been called.  I can't say that this is a bad thing, given the fact that she just can't seem to get it together enough to stop chasing after this drunkard no matter if it puts the baby in danger or not.  I've never changed a diaper, never gave her a bath because they won't let me.. It's a concern because I've wondered if they're hiding something.. She would defend him to the bitter end I feel.  He's a pitiful excuse for a man.. I wouldn't even call him that.. he's every mothers nightmare.. sums it up much better.  Of course, she allows it.  So what do you do?  You don't.

At this point I just stress about the baby.  Screw her and him.  They're grown people and capable of making good decisons.. they don't . 

Since they blame me and my husband now.. we aren't "allowed" to go to the babies birthday party next weekend.   Three years old.. I've never been to one party of hers because they come up with reason why I can't.   I was hoping that this year would be different.  It won't be. 

I'm still working 2 jobs, my baby starts 6th grade this year.  Jr. High.. it's unreal to me.  She has all the hormones and mouthy mouth going on.  I recently got her a cell phone and boy does she ever think she's something with that thing.  She likes her clothes from a certain store now too.  Growing up on me..

My moms in the last stages of alzheimers.  She can only walk a small way with assistance, has to be fed and all of her needs taken care .  I miss her, but I still talk to her and tell her things just like she knows what's happening.  I think she does sometimes!  This is an evil disease.  I go every day after work and change her, get her ready for bed and fed.  It's the least that I can do. 

Hubby was recently promoted on his job.. he so deserves it.  A little incentive to keep him content there too. 

Well I have a busy morning.  Remember to add me on FB if you have it.. I have Myspace too and some of you are already there..
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Time:11:53 am

Happy Christmas Eve!

It's pouring rain here.. I walked outside to find my 14+ year old Catahoula Cur dog dead.. she's been going downhill for some time now.  Chels and I buried her in the rain..next to her best friend, our lab who died back last year. Somehow the rain seemed fitting for something that's been in our life this  long.  She was a big dog, and digging in the mud wasn't easy, but I rekon this country girl still has it in me, because I got it done. .

I've been cooking like crazy for the last several days..  Fudge, Tiger butter, cookies, tortilla rollups nd freezing them.  Now, if I could just stop eating the fudge. 

My fudge still doesn't taste like my granny's use to.  I remember her putting the big glob of butter in last , while the fudge was right off the fire and still very hot.  I remember watching it melt, and then watching her stir and stir and stir.. knowing that her arthiritis in her hands HAD to be killing her.  Nothing in the world tasted any better.. my mom didn't cook the extra stuff, like sweets and special things.. but Granny could make stuff to die for.  I developed my love for cooking from her, she would let me experiment and help.. I loved that.. stuff I didn't get to do at home.

I've been soooo depressed the last couple of days.  Anyone with Chronic depression knows how it comes and goes, and you just accept it for what it is and deal with it, hopefully in a good way. 

In my heart I know that I should be seeing my grand daughter.. she turned 2 in august.. I haven't seen her since she was 6 months old.   My oldest sent Chelsea an email.. telling her that NO... they would not be coming here for Christmas, but going to her Daddy's instead and her boyfriends grandmothers house.   Her dad went years without seeing her.  He was never really a part of her life in any sort of way.  But now, it's all about him and his girlfriend I guess is grandma to the baby.   I know that it's best that I don't see her..They would use it against  me and wind up hurting me even more.   My husband thinks I'm crazy for even caring.. sometimes I wonder that myself. 

I wonder how many years will pass before I stop blogging about my daughter?  Stupid and I know it.  

I have so much to do today.. my husbands family is all coming over tomorrow afternoon.  I have to somehow magically make this house transform and get gifts wrapped and do all the cooking., and my poodle needs a bath and haircut.. he looks like an old orphan. 

My work party went great yesterday.. all of the guys were impressed and bragged on my food.  They appreciated it a lot and it showed.  It made me feel really good to give them at least that.. I don't think they had ever had a party out there for Christmas before. 

Well, I need to get busy!  Merry Christmas!

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Subject:Gotta get my butt in gear..
Time:10:42 pm


I'm wondering when I'm gonna get done with shopping! 

I still have some main gifts to get... husband, mother and aunt.. which are my biggies other than the Santa stuff. 

I'm not just totally thrilled with anything that I've gotten anyone this year, and I've totally cut back, just because. 

I'm having a little party for the guys at work Tuesday.. I want to make it special for them.. and I'll do my best.. but with the cost of food like it is,  I hope they don't expect a big spread.. I'll do a cake, cookies and some candy.. maybe deviled eggs.   One of the bosses is cooking Chili and the guys are donating $3.00 each to cover expenses for that.  Some of them actually grumbled about having to pay 3 dollars.. geez. 

I have a party to go to Tuesday night.. then I'll be hosting a get together here.. then another one Christmas afternoon.  I've been cooking my butt of lately and freezing things.  I'm not going just way overboard this year like previous years... It works me too hard and I don't have any help, not even with the cleanup.  I enjoy having everyone over, but the bottom line is, I just work too much now to put on big party like I use to do.  Tomorrow I need to make out my menu's and go to the grocery store.   I've been good at  using coupons lately for things, and stocking up on things as they come on sale.   I figure with the economy in this town like it is right now, I probably need to get in practice again.


New Years Eve we'll be going to a friends for a get together.. we always have a blast and I'm excited about getting to see everyone.  It's been awhile and it will be nice to just relax and enjoy. 

I think I'm done with my Santa doings.. She's getting a TV, Nintendo DS games and other odds and ends.  She wanted a flat screen TV, but.. ugh.. I just couldn't see that just yet!

Has anyone ever made Turtle butter candy?  I made it the other night and I have to say that it's the prettiest candy that I remember seeing in a long time.. and OHHHH so easy!  I broke mine apart like bark, instead of cutting into squares.. I think it's going to be a hit!   I'll make another batch tomorrow to send to the police station and have for my work party.   So far I've made that, caramel dipped pretzels and fudge.. which was much easier than my granny's recipe, but good none the less.. I have some cakes and cookies frozen too... thank goodness for the freezer! 

I've had these small, freaky looking knots come up on the inside of my left wrist recently.  They are spongy feeling and look about the size of a pea and under the skin.  I keep hoping that they will go away but they haven't yet.   I guess it's going to mean a trip to the doctor soon, I just hope that he doesn't say surgery... both of my jobs require extensive use of my hands.. and cannot be done if I'm in any sort of cast at all.  I wish I knew what these things were. 
 

I hope everyone has a bright and beautiful weekend before Christmas!

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Subject:I love this time of the year!
Time:07:32 pm
Current Mood:contentcontent
I always love the time change.  It's something about cooler weather and wanting to settle down early for the night. 
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Subject:Weekend trip
Time:10:31 pm
Current Mood:crazycrazy

Chels made Allstate Choir.  This is a big honor and only a few of kids are picked from each area.  We spent the day in Baton Rouge yesterday.  Their performance was great, with the exception of the very end when they let 2 girls pipe in with a solo part, which wasn't suppose to be a jazzy spiritual but the kids stood up there and tried to make it sound that way... Ewwwww, those few lines were seriously BAD!  They could have left that part out.. people in the audience were cutting eyes at each other, wondering what the heck!

Chels did good and looked so pretty.  Her looks are changing so much just this year.  I have all my pics posted on myspace, if you'd like to look, please do!  Also, add me if you'd like and have a page yourself. http://www.myspace.com/remembertheredhead

On the way back from Baton Rouge, We stopped at the Myrtles plantation in St. Francisville, LA. us three, my ex husband, his girlfriend and her kids stopped too.   Maybe you have heard of this plantation, it's one of the most haunted places they say.  If you google about the place, you'll get a history that's very interesting.  Sylvia   Brown has been there, and the Montel Williams show did a segment on it, along with other media people.  

One of the tales of the place involves a young slave girl that got her ear chopped off.. she haunts the place and is known to take women's earrings.. just one of them.   Chelsea warned me not to wear any earrings.. I did and I kid you not.. while I was walking on the  grounds I felt my ears and one of my earrings was missing!!  The kids just absolutely LOVED this.. and were so freaked out by it.. as was I!   Chels ran in and told the lady that worked there and she said that it happens all the time, to leave my name and phone number and they would contact me when it showed up in the house somewhere.  Normally, I don't believe stuff like this, but It seriously happened to me!! 
I also have pictures posted on myspace that we took while there.  They say that the ghostly images and things show up in the pictures.. one of my friends just emailed me and told me that there was a face in one of the pictures and a shadowy figure in a window..  and I saw it too.. if you look at the pictures you'll see the comment she left.  Please if you look at the pictures and see anything, let me know or leave a comment so everyone can see it under the picture!!

Our trip there was fun.  I went exploring on the grounds with the kids while everyone else seemed less interested and sat at the tables waiting on the tour.   I wanted to walk around and feel the place.. and felt it I did!   We walked under the trees and by an old well.. I felt a strong feeling in one spot in the yard.. so we took pictures there.  The kids found some black cats wandering around which added to their excitement of the place and it being so close to Halloween too.. they were excited.  I would like to go on their mystery tour at night, but I definitely would not want to spend the night there.  It's a bed a breakfast too, but around $200 a night to stay.
 

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Subject:Cool weather!
Time:10:23 pm
Current Mood:chipperchipper
I love this time of the year, much cooler mornings than our  normal 90's, which is a very welcomed change for all the humans and critters and plants around here.  It's been beautiful weather, but the mosquitoes will tote you off after all the heavy rains we had from the hurricane several weeks ago. 

We've been doing yard work.. we overlaid our old patio with red pavers and doubled it in size.. built an area for the grill and made a new walkway.  Very hard work, but so worth it, things are coming together more every day.  I have posted very little lately, simply because I've been so busy with this or that.

We are excited about the arrival of our newest *baby* , a boxer puppy.  I say puppy, he's probably at least 8 months old or so.   Since there is a leash law and he was running loose a few weekends ago, Jerre had to *arrest* him, put him in the back of the patrol car and take him back to the station for *booking* ( taking  him to the stations dog pen until animal control is called) .  It's standard that each animal they pick up go through the proper channels in order for the owners to claim them if they see fit.   When his time was up, no one had claimed him.  We've named him Sam and even bought toys for him before he got here..   This is my first time with this breed and he is such a big, loving baby.   All the rest of our animals are females ( and all have been spayed) with the exception of my old man, who's 15 years old in a few days.   Sam was neutered last monday and the shelter paid 4o of the bill, which was fantastic!  

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Subject:Hi Ya'll!
Time:10:50 pm
Current Mood:calmcalm
OMgoodness it's been forever since I've posted anything at all.  I'm such a slacker sometimes! 
Hurricane Gustav blew in here causing flooding and downed trees everywhere.. I'm still trying to get caught up @ work after all the damage that my guys had to tend to.   Now, Ike is trying to blow through here.  Not much rain in my area, but the wind is strong and it feels weird outside.

I've worked so much lately that it's unreal.  Overtime at work, then working in my shop once I get home in the evenings.   I stay so tired from working a lot, but I'm thankful that I have jobs that support me.  

Has anyone ever tried Ultra 90 for weight loss?   Just wondering since I've been considering it.   I always worry about side effects and anything else weird that might happen. 

I know its time that I do something to feel better about myself.  I'm not just huge, but I'm overweight and I have blood pressure issues.  I'm tired of not having energy and feeling like a *fat girl*   I wore a big overshirt yesterday for work ( simply because I had on a tank top and since I work in a man's world I'm very cautious about how I present myself to prevent any misinterpretations)  after work, I went to Walmart and a woman that I know walked up to me, smiled real big and looked at  my stomach area.. then the bitch said... "are you just fat?
I nearly fainted.. I've never had anyone ask me just that point blank before.   I'm 43, never given birth and she knows that.  She also knows that it wasn't by choice and that I tried for years to get pregnant.  At 43 it just ain't happening.  Some people just have no home training and lots of balls to ask questions like that. 

Today I washed down my living room walls and kitchen cabinets.  Doing things like that gives me a sense of accomplishment.   I also mopped the house with old timey brown bottled lysol.  I haven't bought that in years, but it sure made my  floors shine.  I mop at least twice a week, sometimes more often depending on how much traffic is in and out and if it's rainy or not. 

Chels started Piano lessons this past week and she also made all state choir. She gets to go to Baton Rouge to perform.   I had no idea that she has such a beautiful voice until she went to district choir last year.    The child continues to amaze me with different things that she's talented in. 

Well it's late, the wind is blowing up a hurricane out there so I guess I'm headed to bed and crossing my fingers that I don't have a tree fall tonight from any storms that might come in.
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Subject:Wow!
Time:03:34 pm
Current Mood:relaxedrelaxed
Has it really been 7 weeks since I've posted anything? Time sure went by quick.   I guess with hubby's job loss and me trying to adjust to his now crazy shift work.. along with school starting, I just lost track of time.
He seems to be adjusting well to the new job.. me.. I don't know.  I'm spoiled to him being home at night and now he rarely is, working 12 hr shifts.   I just don't sleep well when he's not home for some reason.  I find myself dozing off constantly when he is at home. 

As I write this, the hurricane had downgraded and is getting closer to my area.  We aren't expecting anything but wind and rain and possibly some flooding, but that should be minor.   Our shelters here are full from folks down south.  You see them walking all over town, eating in the eating places..some of them appear to feel like they are on vacation if you know what I mean... courtesy of FEMA.  :)  We watched a bus pull up and load some of them up for a shopping trip, I probably don't even want to know who footed the bill for that  because I know that it'll piss me off.  Not to sound ugly, but simply expressing my opinion on what I saw today with my own eyes, This is definitely the "give it to me because I'm entitled to it, even though I've never worked a day in my life" crowd. 

The rain seems to have set in here.. that slow, soft sounding rain that makes you sleepy or just makes you wanna do nothing but curl up on the couch.  I have to work tomorrow..    schools are closed due to the hurricane. 
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Subject:Writer's Block: Makeover! Or: Creepy Crawlies
Time:06:24 pm

If you had the chance to go crazy and completely overhaul your appearance, what would you do?

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Recount a remarkable incident involving insects.

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 I would lose about 50-75 lbs and probably get the crows feet fixed around my eyes.  I would definitely have a designer pick out some clothes for me, I have no sense of style with clothing! 
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